Ok Team Ennatype 9 I don’t want our board to die- I still need you in these trying times. So, I am going to jump in and start this continued page. I realize as I had a big conflict with my parents. COVID has brought our polarization into a space that we can’t ignore. As a health care provider with a BFF on a COIVD team in Portland, I have taken some of his comments too personally. I ghosted them on Easter and made them scared. I think I went into a wounded child role, and I think I confused her with my Soul Child. She is pissed! I am pissed. Oh the journal letter I wrote and won’t send. My best self does not show up with my parents but as they are dualistic, winner takes all type of people, I do not feel my vulnerable self can show up- so I put on my anger -fighting suit of armor and start swinging. Then I feel frustrated and wonder if I’ll ever grow up with them. I am not sure this is a Soul Child thing. I guess in that I felt I wasn’t allowed to show emotions or ideas that contradicted my parents and brothers. The daily question: What sustains me- well this work and exploring my soul and personality does. Nature, walking and biking have always been my companions. Poetry has been very important to me this year. I think I have read at least a poem aloud each day this year. Taking care of people and trying to have their soul show up in a visit sustains me as a Family Physician. That is harder to do via phone call than in person. I think telemedicine is going Ok, but I miss connecting on a deeper level and listening to patient’s body language and story. OK- I may be rambling and missing the point. But I just missed you guys and thought I’d just start talking.